It’s been 12 years since I assumed your role but I still can’t fill your space. Wherever you are .. know I have only paid attention to your strengths… weaknesses I knew of… weaknesses that I feel … I have channeled into positive energy. You are so much that I am not and I have become so much trying to bring you alive. We are different in so many ways.. yet every now and then you come alive in me. Sometimes I fantasise about how life would be if you were still here … hmm… But that is weak…. weak….
I have realised there is no need to call to you or wishfully think of you being here…. because you are still here in me …. I am you and you are me: Eventhough we are different , we are the same. Thank you for all the memories you left…. thank you for the support you left… thank you for all the challenges you left… thank you for believing in me.
Thank you for pointing out my weaknesses; the many lessons you taught me without words. Like every man you weren’t perfect but I shall forever romanticise the man you are. For in your strengths and weaknesses you brought forth me… And I shall be no judge of you, because judging you would be judging my very image in the mirror.
I hope you hear these words… vibrating through the firmament of the deep throes that set us apart. That caused your world that existed 12 years ago ……. into oblivion.
Coming to terms with Loneliness
The going away of things
In the end
I can't seem to be optimistic about the things that would benefit from optimism. As a pessimist, my optimism is always irrational.
Fear of Forgetting
When I was a child, I realised I was invisible. I was a terrified, quiet girl who blended into the background.
Failure.We all have dreams, we are all encouraged to dream. The world is ours, all we have to do it take it.