There was no reason for it. Another day. Like all the other ones. Same wake up call in the morning. Same thing had for breakfast. Same goodbye to my daughter. Same route walked to work. And yet I didn’t feel the same.
You just can’t tell when it’s going to happen. I don’t know if it’s a thought or a feeling, or something deeper, greater; it’s that intangible shift that, for me, only occurs when I’m alone. When for some reason I am connected and everything seems okay. These moments are brief and blow over all too quickly and before too long I begin to sweat the small things again. I forget none of it matters. I forget we’re all connected and that what I do and how I act today has consequences for me and others I can’t always fathom.
It’s the cultivation of these moments of ‘connectedness’ that escapes me.
It is often in the small and simple things where we find the answer to who we are :)
Home is where the heart is!
Autumn breeze clearing the mind
To live is not this!
He was happy he'd decided to go
I'm stuck here in a society that doesn't let me be where I need to be. Held back by the people who birthed me, by the people who learned me, by the people who will bury me when I have lived my shitty, cynical life. I have three options, One which would bring joy to me that I have not seen in a long time, one which would give me the opportunity for me to be possibly the happiest ever happy in the future, and one which would break me apart. Most likely I will have to choose the latter. The one that will break me. The society that we have created will break me, just like it has broken you without you even knowing. We sit behind our computers, reading other peoples stories because we have none to tell. I am not free,if I go out and find a drink, I get arrested. If I go to the orchard nearby, I get arrested. If I try and build a house on some land that I think looks suitable to raise my family in, I get arrested. Is this how life is meant to be? Is this how we started? Is this how we will end? This may not make complete sense, but that's because it's come right from my heart. I hate western society.
Good luck living in a world like this. I'm off to Alaska.
The farmer's beads
The weight of a memory