I wanted to watch the sunset with you at multiple places, like those bleachers that reminded me of The Perks Of Being A Wallflower. I told you it was my favorite movie and that we should find time to watch it together. It was all about time with you.
I hoped to take you to my favorite fancy date spot - that rotating lounge with 360 degree views of New York City - if we made it to the end of the year. That kind of thinking has never been beneficial to me. Or you - when you suggested to go kayaking near your childhood home right as fall was ending.
I always believed that the key to living is experiences - by learning something new, tasting something strange, or exploring a different town. You were up for all of that. You’d take me places and we would end up spending way too much time at an arcade. We had known each other for less than a month.
I was thrilled when you wanted to take me to this lake somewhere upstate. I think I tried to explain how much that meant to me - you did to me what was usually unreturned. I’m used to being the one to show someone something cool, exciting, or weird. It felt nice to be on the other side - a breath of fresh air.
We didn’t make it to that lounge and I’m so hung up over it.
A few more days
A final Hi meeting
The local neighborhood bar has a quiet time between six and nine. It is a place that specializes in coffee, beer and seasonal menus. There is just enough of each for a satisfying snack and effective buzz. After the time when the laptop lids close and before the social gatherings start -- there is a sort of twilight*. Often this time is a fugitive ground rife with creative inspiration and meditative work -- of the kind that results in personal reward.*twilight may refer to civil, nautical or astronomical variety depending on your social or terrestrial condition
A man positions his mouse on the edge of his browser window. He clicks, holds and drags the viewport first left then right. The content of a video game promo micro site responds and adapts to the available space. To the man, this is more delightful than the game itself.
A man laboriously moves his piano down three levels onto the subway platform. Classic vocals and strided chords -- he played so well I swore he was blind. Oblivious to the heat on that August stage, he was most in touch with his audience -- whom he elevated with his music.
A woman should do exactly as she pleases no matter what a man may think.
As the Dalai Lama once said, "It is a time when there is much in the window, but nothing in the room."
"No one understands me," she said. Her grandmother was silent for a minute. It seemed she was searching for an answer in the star speckled sky. "But no one understands anyone in this world, darling. We are all unique. It is what gives us a sense of wonder."