I was mistaken I don’t want to forget your smell. Summertime and cleanliness. But f, we don’t always get what we want.

I’m just so tired.

Just tell me that it’s okay. That you understand why. S, I’m just so tired.

I tried. I saw you and it was like a breath of fresh air. f you i have tried to forget you and i find myself falling for someone else before realizing that I like them for the qualities you and him have in common.

I danced around in my room and sang until I was out of breath then collapsed on my bed only after a few songs because my heart would not slow down and I could not breathe because the memory of your body so close to mine raced through my head.

Now I am tired. not from the rush your eyes used to give me, because he has the same ones. not from your laugh and the way it used to make me nervous. not anymore.

He listens to me. He doesn’t even know me, and he loves me more than you ever could have.

I am tired from holding on for too damn long.

I was mistaken. I dont want to forget your smell. But I should. dont you understand?

i am tired.

-L. Mau