Since I lost my job, a bloody nightmare begun. I don’t really know if every feeling deserves an explanation, and if every explanation has a feeling involved. At this moment the only one feeling I’ve got is to disappear. Yes disappear of everything, everywhere and everyone, and perhaps I should be thinking ‘Why?’ and that’s something I haven’t found an answer yet, I know the detonating reason of all this fool feeling, and let me share it, it is my job. It may sound stupid, ridiculous, but hell I can’t stop it. I’ve got to many borrowings that without being working, of course I won’t be able to face them off. And that, that’s killing me, worrying me, driving me mad. I think my subconscious is working on that already, because the reaction I’ve got is just sleep, yes, sleep. Sleeping takes me out of all reality, takes me out of my entire problems. It makes the time goes by so fast that I can’t even feel it. I don’t know if sleeping really helps or is getting everything worst, but it’s something I can control at this moment. When I closed my eyes, and started to focus on the sound of my breathing every other sound fades slowly, and also reality and problems. These are not good moments in my life, not at all… for that reason, I’ve got to go; I’ve got to sleep.