image: David Licata“His children came to him but his wife, bird-like and sad-looking, did not.”
The October afternoon belonged to me, and I wanted to escape myself, to go somewhere I’d always meant to go but hadn’t. I trekked to Long Island City’s Noguchi Museum: by tram over the East River, by foot over the rusting Roosevelt Island bridge and then down an industrial boulevard, finally reaching what was once the artist’s studio[1]. On the first floor, The Stone Within, a vertical, vaguely cylindrical sculpture almost as tall as I and as wide as my apartment door, captivated me. I slid two fingers along a portion of polished black basalt and burned when I realized how much it felt like her skin.
I walked to the garden and sat on a wooden bench. A girl, seven or so, entered running, chased around the garden’s sculptures by a boy who could only be her younger brother. They giggled and their footsteps crackled on the gravel. Their parents entered seconds later.
“Stay on the path,” their mother said.
The father walked toward a fountain. “Yuki, Pedro, come here,” he said. He was younger than I, Latino, with short black hair and a chiseled, angular face. His fine clothes fit him well.
His children came to him but his wife, dressed in black, bird-like and sad-looking, did not.
“This is my favorite fountain in the whole world,” he said. He lowered his voice to the volume reserved for churches, and I could no longer hear him.
I was disappointed. The ex spoke affectedly of the garden, of the fountain, and I kept trying to see what she had seen here, to understand. Did she view it from this bench? Did her gaze wander to those bamboo trees and follow them upward? Did she think of me? Was she thinking of me now?
“Excuse me,” the father said to me, “would you take our picture?”
“Of course.”
“Mariko!” His wife joined him by the fountain. Water rose through its interior mysteriously and collected in a font, glazed over the top and down its sides and into the ground where the cycle began again. I took two photos of the family. “Great,” he said, looking at the screen. “Can you take one more?”
The family posed again. I said, “Say cheese.”
“Queso,” the father said. He hoisted the boy in the air as I depressed the shutter button; I had captured the son laughing in mid fall.
“Strangers take the best pictures,” the father said. His wife bowed.
On the N train home I didn’t think about the woman who wanted to delete me from her history, whom I desired but who no longer desired me; instead I thought about all the times the word “Anonymous” appeared on placards beside works of art, and I sensed I had done something important, something lasting.
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